Launcher Quote: “You’ve been on this bus for four hours and only now do you realize how nervous you are. Was this a bad idea? Was this a mistake? What if things go wrong? Briefly – for a split second or half an hour, it’s hard to tell – you entertain the idea of shouting until the bus stops, getting out, and running home. You could be safe and warm at home right now but you’re here, and home is getting farther away by the second. Why again did you decide to do this? Why now?
It doesn’t matter anymore. For whatever reason, you’ve locked in to your choice. All you can do now is sit in this suspended animation for another four hours and wait for the consequences of your decision. Behind the fog of the window, the world passes by in a blur. Without thinking, you press a finger against the glass. You lift your hand and watch the circle disappear into the fog.
You’ve always liked drawing pictures on windowpanes.
Best in a quiet place with headphones.”
Contemplation is a big part of meditation, in part because of the fact that it forces you out of your frame of reference and into one that has you look at what you’ve decided and took action on in your life. In a sometimes hectic world where decisions can sometimes be made in the moment and where big choices can have you moving a mile a minute without being able to think about them, being able to take time to think about what’s happened can arm yourself for the future. A bus ride, especially one that occurs over the course of hours, is one setting where this can be processed and thought about, and is the perfect setting for this entry.
Drawing patterns on windows isn’t really an unusual thing for those folks who live in a climate where the windows can get this way. It’s a simple way to pass the time while at the same time having a seemingly inexhaustible canvas on which to draw, as the windows fog back up after they’re drawn on. It’s an idle gesture that is made as such by virtue of the fact that you may be, in the sense of traveling long term on a bus, able to do nothing but think about the decisions you’ve made, especially if said decision is connected to why you’re traveling.
In today’s society, such a scenario might not be as likely, in the age of the smartphone and the internet, where you can be distracted, entertained or otherwise not in your headspace with so much at your disposal and in your fingertips. But that doesn’t mean that contemplation can’t take place, or that you can’t consciously take the time to reflect on your choices for a significant amount of time. The act of drawing on a fogged window may accompany the thinking process, but the goal is still the same,a nd one that I think we can all do with as a reminder to think about what we do after we do it.